Hayden's Dermatologist Appointment!

Finally, I was able to get Hayden in. I went to Dermatology PA in Edina, off France Ave. I arrived 20 minutes early. Since Hayden was a new patient I knew I would have paperwork etc. So, the front desk gal wanted our my insurance card, wanted me to feel some paperwork out. When it was all done, I said that Hayden had reached his out of pocket so I would not have a co-pay for him. The lady gave me some stupid reason well, if their a co-pay on the card we have to collect it. I already had quite a day and I said" Nope, I'm not paying a co-pay you can call my insurance company, but I'm not waiting for my co-pay back for 6 weeks. It's only $15 but to me it was the principal of it. I was already annoyed by the day. And, I came in with my head on straight because it was concerning my son and a blister he's had for 6 months. And to get him treated for his skin problems. Which looked like eczema to me. OK, so the doctor took a look at his blister and got a scab of it. WE will have the results on Friday! He said that he needs to see those results and if he needs to do a biopsy then after that it may have to be surgically removed. It just depends on what these results are. HE did diagnose him with eczema just like me. It's a mild case. He prescribed two creams one for the blister and one for all over in the spots his skin is breaking out. I'm so happy that he finally has some other creams. He should be using this for 4 weeks, and if not any better then he would want to be seen again. And, I'm making the appointment just in case it doesn't clear up. I want to be prepared. I really hope his blister can go away soon. I know the doctor was a little perplexed on why it hasn't gotten better after 6 months. Hopefully I will have answers soon!!

Wanting to make a Change!

Ok, so as most know. I'm so sick of my job I could scream. I don't mind the work, it's just that there's all these unnessary stresses of the job. I also don't want to be tied to my phones all day. I wish I had more freedom to get up and move around. And, why shouldn't I feel that way. After all I've been working at Medica almost 4 years. And prior to that I worked at Best Buy for 3 years. So, I've been thinking about taking coding classes online and getting a certificate so I can work in coding with Medica, and if that doesn't work move on to another company.
The only problem is with the coding is it's about a year, and the cost is 2,748.00, No of that is covered with Medica. Because it's not a degree it's a certificate. Plus, I would have to take a whole year off from college for my degree. I can't do both. It would be like full time school with 2 different degrees/certificate I'm going for plus full time work and time with Hayden, Erik and time for myself. Oh and some how manage to juggle friends and family as well. I also will be picking up most of the slack with chorus/house duties and cooking since Erik will be at school 4 days a week.
In one way I"m excited to get back to school. It means another step closer to my degree, and a lottery of money in a way. But, at the sametime it means less time for other things that I enjoy. I wonder what my next move will be? And will I be able to handle this very demanding semester?
Only time will tell. My Anniversary with work is on Dec 11th. And, I know I'm wanting to say to my boss, I'm getting bored and unhappy with my job. But, I know that there's nothing she can really do for me about it.

ENT doctor appointment!~

Last week on Tuesday, I was very tired of getting ear infections and continuous sore throats so I decided it was time to go to a specialist. I got off work at 3:30 and just needed to get into Eden Prairie. I waited for about 5 minutes and got into fill out paperwork etc. Got my hearing test done first. Those test are long and tedisis. Well, at least I know my hearing is good. My numbers were right were they should be. So the doctor asked me some questions. I told him what I was experiencing. And, he examined me, he looked at my ears, They were clear and looked good he stated. Then he checked out my throat, He decided to do a test, that would be a little tube that went through my nose and came through to back of my throat. He did numb my throat and my nose, which helped alot. The test was weird he said he could see some irration and maybe a chronic sore throat happening. He asked me if I ate alot of chocolate, fatty foods or peppermint. I said no, everything in moderation. He said a couple of things could be going on from his assessment of me. He said it was too soon to diagnosis and that I would need to just hear him out. Alright, so he said that I could experience some pressure in my ears that would be TMJ maybe. He wondered if I've been clinching my jaw at night or alot through the day. Also the problems with my throat, could be acid reflex, and that I could take some Priolsec and see if that my throat feels better. And, that it could be that my weight is an issue. So, I left the appointment going ok, humm. But, I took the Priolsec that night, and immediately I started to feel sick I didn't want to eat my huge plate of taco pile on.
I ended up not wanting to stay either. I told Erik I didn't feel well and went to bed. While in bed, I woke up looked at the clock it was about 10:30. I was starting to feel really hot and really sick. A feeling of extreme warmth and the feeling I was going to throw up. My instinct was right I threw up in my mouth and instead of getting the bedroom floor full of it I held in my mouth and went into the bathroom. I ended up throwing up 5 times more. It was horrible! My stomach was so tied in knots. I went out the living room and told Erik what was up and had a popsicle and went to bed again.
The next morning, I felt sick again. Only this time I was having other issues. My stomach felt awful. I tried to eat a plain english muffin with some butter on it. I couldn't even have a bite. Even though I hadn't ate anything since noon the prior day. So, I ended up being very tired all the through the day, and slept most of it. Got up finally around noon to have some soup. Which I was full and went back to sleep. The next day the same sorta of routine. By 2 or 3 in the afternoon I was feeling like my old self again.
I still don't know what happened but what I think it was is I ended up getting the flu on top of everything else.
It just hasn't been my year!

Adjustments & Accomadations

Starting the evening of Tuesday night, I packed my bags and took Hayden and we headed to my parents house. Erik was going on his camping trip for the next 5 days and I didn't want to stay at my house all alone plus it would be a little difficult to take care Hayden. I needed to make sure to eat right etc. So, Tuesday night Mom and I didn't arrive at the house till 7:30, it was time for Hayden to play, eat and get ready for bed. That night we didn't eat till 9. The next morning I was up at 6 am and out the door by 6:40, The week wasn't the best as far as work is concerned. Maybe it's because I was stuck having to work and didn't get to go on the camping trip, or the fact that I hadn't had a vacation. Or that I wasn't feeling well. Whatever the case, the week did seem to drag. Once Friday rolled around, I was exhausted. We had Buffalo Wild Wings and then talked a little bit.
On Saturday morning, I got to sleep in, My Mom got up with Hayden. We did some house work and then Mom and I had to make a couple of stops out, We got Hayden a sippy cup. he's starting to transition to cup from bottle. YAY!! Then, we had Jimmy Johns for lunch, After I told Dad the truth, that Erik and I filed for bankruptcy he was shocked at first, then he had a bunch of questions. We then went out on the patio. Hayden laided in a hammock for the first time. We went inside later because it looked like it was going to rain, we played Rock Band together, and Hayden even helped with the drums with my Mom. He was so tired we decided to keep playing, he went to sleep. WE played for two hours or so, had dinner, Steaks!! Yummmm! Then we played after dinner. We had a blast, then we all went to bed.
On Sunday, I slept till 10, my parents helped out again so I could get some sleep it's a good thing too, because my throat has been sore again and my ears have a lot of pressure, it seems a double ear infection is approaching, Thank goodness tomorrow is my doctor's appointment with the specialist. Hopefully I will get some answers, I can't keep functioning this way.
I started to gather my things and went home around 1 yesterday. I got all unpacked and put stuff away. I had been feeling weird all day so I ended up not doing much else. I played with Hayden a little bit, but by that point I was missing Erik, He didn't arrive home till about 9. We watched a program and I went to bed at 10. I was very tired!! I think I'm battling an infection that's trying to enter my body. SIGH!
I can't believe it today is the 26th, of July, that means next month it will be 4 years Erik and I have been married.
And, school starts less than a month. Happy we have money but sad that the stress will intensify once school starts again.

Couldn't put the book down!

A new record happened for me yesterday. I read over 250 pages in just one day, well not even a day more like 10 hours. I read Kendra Wilkerson autobiography: Sliding into Home. Great book!! Thanks to my friend Jennifer she borrowed it to me. I was so intrigued by her story, that I found the whole book enjoyable to read. She talked about her past with experimenting with drugs, sex and stripping. It made me want to learn more about her. I do feel I learned alot about her already. I wasn't completely interested prior to the book, infact I felt she was spoiled and into herself. I learned that wasn't the case. And, a new found respect for her and what she went through in her past. I was watching a couple of episodes briefly of The Girl Next Door, but stopped watching because I was pregnant at the time I felt really insecure about my body plus I found myself wanting to watch that instead of working on homework.
But, now not only after reading the book do I want to pick up where I left off with the reality show but I wanted to watch her show Kendra.
I am now thinking that I need to get back to reading autobiography's. I enjoy them so much. I wish Britney Spears would write one, but I guess I'll have to wait maybe a couple of more years for that.

Well, now the weekend approaches and I can't wait. It's been a long frustrating week.

In other news I will be telling my Dad this weekend that I filed bankruptcy. I really hope he understands and that it's not a big mistake to Dad all about it. Wish me Luck!!

Found lost items!~

The weekend was great!
Friday~ I rested most of the night because I was really tired from the week being sick and still going to work. I spent time with Hayden we played and laughed together. He's offically able to sit up all on his own. I loved seeing him independently sitting since Erik and I were a little worried not to mention Hayden refused to sit just a week ago before that. His dinner time didn't go as smoothly he wanted to play more with his food than eat it. After he did go to bed, and I ended up catching up on my soaps and surfing on Facebook. I was going to play my game but by the time I planned on that I was so tired and ready for bed.
Saturday~ Erik and went to our favorite mexican restraurant at El Loro, we had to get home quickly and get the house clean to get ready for Kathy and her boyfriend to come over. They came over around 4:30 and we had a nice visit, then we had dinner after played a card game. Erik and I watched our Nextflix movie. We watched Precious. It was such a great but sad movie. It's a movie you watch once and that's it. I could never sit down and watch it again. But, I guess you have to see it to know what I mean. Then Erik and I watched a much lighter movie before bed.
Sunday~ We woke up suddenly. It was Erik's turn to give Hayden a bottle in the morning, so I was sleeping. And Erik said" I need you to help me, Hayden needs a bath right now" So, at some point in the middle of Hayden's crying in the crib he pooped and not only that but his diaper came undone, so their was poop everywhere on his bedding, on his legs, etc. Erik got him in the bath tub right away and I stripped his bedding completly down and got it washed. I was so happy how we worked well as a team. I found while I was getting his bedding taken off that he had thrown every pacifer behide the crib on the floor. So we found all his good pacifiers, and their was about 5 of them. Such a relief to find them!! After his bath we were awake so we had breakfast and then I went out to Cub and went grocery shopping for the week. When I returned I had to take a nap because my ear ache was coming back. Later we had dinner, and Erik surprised me with that he found my ipod Nano that had been missing for almost 9 months. YAY!!! I was so happy! I got almost all laundry done, but only for it to fill once again. But, it was a great weekend! Erik and I even figured out that you will more than likely keep cable. After all it's our only enteraintment which made me really happy!!

Hard Times Ahead!

I know that this may not seem like a big deal but, our cable is going away. Erik thinks maybe in a year we can get back but right now we have to save all the money we can. Hayden's diapers, formula and daycare is really adding up. Plus, with our bankruptcy we have no way out. We make a pretty good salary combined and we can't afford anything. It's depressing, oh and Erik was doing research because he remember after making payments for almost 2.5 years our payment would go up automatically it will be nearly 1,000 a month!!! This payment goes up in January. Because, why you ask my car payments go away, so they will increase the payment. Doesn't mean we get out of it before 5 years, just means were really broke. Also, they don't care about us furthering education. As, I feared it comes down to paying them the money. WE were told if we wanted a family we could recaluate our financies. But the resistance we got from them on it now, Is that isn't our problem we decided to have a baby. Which in turn has made me overly upset and frustrated with the situation. I can't even begin to tell you the disappointment and fear I have. Erik and I both need to have priorities straight. I felt I was already doing that but I wasn't putting my foot down with Erik on things. So there for I failed. I let him get whatever new toy. Am I to late to turn it around? Erik and I bought a really nice Blue Ray DVD player with theather system. But, were returning it now. WE need to have that money to survive. And, I just think this is crazy, Erik thinks we can go to Hawaii next year, and he refuses to see what's right in front of us. I'm mad at him for getting us into this situation. It's embarrassing I can't even go grab a bite with my friends. Erik did cancel his stuff for Friday, because the reality is that I can't eat anywhere, and I tried to get together with Rachel. But, that's not going to happen. The thing is not only did I get so stressed and upset last night on the verge of tears that I am officially sick again, it started with a sore throat and has not started crap in my lungs, coughing, runny nose and so congestioned!
All I can do is move forward, I have to be more strict on Erik because he does it to me why am I not saying no to him? Partly because he does the budget/bills I told him that I wanted to see everything going on, I want to do it together every Saturday, and I don't want us spending money that we really don't have. I told him I'm tired of living this way. HE's so irresponsible with money, and I have to put a stop to it.