Worry for My Dad

If you could please pray for my Dad, this past June he was having stomach issues and ended up in the ER because he was bleeding from the bottom. My Dad was diagnosed with Diverticulitis: Here's information on the web about it if you want to know more.
http://www.medicinenet.com/diverticulosis/article.htm My Dad completly worried me that night. That next day he had emergency colonscopy and they have some blockage and that's why he was hermogaging it was the worst thing possible because my Dad prided himself on taking care his colon and eating plenty fiber. The doctor told him otherwise his colon looked pink and really good. But they did notice from the inside he had little liver spots, and that he should get them checked out during his next appointment.
WEll, it's almost a year later and my Dad was experiencing some cramping and the same pains he had before. After several talks with Mom, Me and Erik he decided it was time to go and get it checked out. They said he did have an infection again and needed to be put on antibotics. And he has this morning at 9:30 a CT scan to see what's going on with his liver spots.
I really hope everything turns out ok. I love my Dad so much and I just want him to get better!


****UPDATE*** I was so nervous last night to call, But, from Dad's voice I had a feeling it was ok. The results came back good. Dad said to me. "I'm going to be fine honey" I had such a weight lifted off my shoulders I was so relieved. His HDL/LDL levels were good, his cholestol levels were good. He does have a little begin cyst by his kidneys but other then that they are going to keep and eye on it and make sure it's not growing, it's the size of an eraser right now. But, He's good, I'm so relieved!!

Hayden's Daycare

On Friday afternoon right after lunch with my Jimmy Johns sandwhich in my hand still munching on it. I get a call from the daycare saying that Hayden has thrown up twice and I need to pick him up.
Granted, I was happy to be getting out of work early. I really didn't mind, I was really concerned for Hayden and how he was doing.
When I got the daycare, the director was nowhere in sight. So, I was trying to get more information from the girls. One of them got really defensive and didn't want to here me out. The other played dumb and didn't really remember anything.
I was just wanting to know what was going on before he threw up, was he happy? how do you know if wasn't just spit up? They got very defensive with me.
Meanwhile Erik's furious and calling them up getting upset. one of the gals kept saying it's there policy. I said nicly I understand it's your policy but I'm looking for some answers here. Then she proceeds to tell me that I'm feeding him wrong and that' I need to do some applesauce mixed instead.

When I went in last night to pick up Hayden. I finally spoted Mandy and spoke to her. I got some different information that the girls didn't give me on Friday. He did throw up because it was vial it was coming out of his nose. He was really fussy and upset. She also said a lot of the kids went home that day because of it. I thought to myself all important information that would of been useful on Friday. Why must the girls put up a fight with me. I just want answers. I don't expect the policy will change.

But, did I have dumb across my forehead, like I'm going to buy that he was throwing up because it was chunky. Seriously.
WEll, atleast I got answers last night. I'm afraid that right now Hayden has a cold which concerns me only because of his breathing. We always have to keep a close eye on him to make sure he isn't having trouble breathing in the process. I love my little guy! He's the light of my life!

He's going to be 6 months next Friday. I can't even believe it. It just doesn't seem real.

My biggest pet peeves!

So, in the light of today, I discovered that not only after I offically sick of filling out forms, but that If I don't vent to someone or something I'm going to flip out.
I have many pet peeves, some days I can tolerate them more than others. It really depends on my mood and other factors.

Pet peeves are not listed in any order:

Pet Peeve #1 Filling out forms/etc: I apply for finincial aid every year, now since I've had Hayden the goverment or whatever wants to know my income. They want a worksheet filled out and they want a questionare now, Basically, I have to try and remember the month, day and year, I was living in a different state. Thank god I've only lived in 2 total. What a major headache. They want to prove I'm a US citizan. I mean are you kidding me? It gets more complicated then that they want my taxes, now I could risk mailing them or I could email them to them. They said it has to be sent from my met net account, well that goes directly to my personal account so either way when I was trying to figure it out I have no way of sending directly from my met net. They want it be signed so it has to be scanned and so and so on.

Pet Peeve #2 People not paying attention on the roads,: and then you see their talking on their cell phone. Seriously one these days their going to cause a huge accident and take some ones life or their own. I'm even more cautious when I'm driving now that I Hayden in the car. Thank god, I dont have to go to far going to the daycare and coming home with him. I'm so parnoid of people on the road. Grow up and pay attention. It's not a race track. Nor, is it a place to be careless.

Pet Peeve #3 My job sometimes: Some days I can't stand the procedures and processes I go through at work. One of the most annoying one's I think of right now is when they send emails about adding something to the KN (knowledge Network) are main system for Medica on processes. They don't email the link to it, they show were on the site where you click to get to it. I don't have time to go through. I usually save it to my favorites, and remember the name of it or something and move on. Show where you would find and send the link.

Pet Peeve #4 Playing phone tag: I hate it so much. Especially with calling drs offices. You call the nurse line, and leave a message. Which is long, and you have to wait to hear a whole long message before you can leave one, Then they call you back and your on the phone, (because your at work) and then you call them back and then their not avaiable to take your call. And find out their not going to be in till much later.

Pet Peeve #5. You call a place and your told you have to call a different number, nobody knows what number your actually suppose to call you just call the number you're given and hope to god that's the person you're suppose to speaking too.

Pet Peeve #6: Someone that keeps contacting you, that you don't want to talk too. (don't worry it's none of you), I'm sure a couple of you know who I'm talking about, I just wish they wouldn't stop calling, facebook messaging me. I felt the only way to solve the issue was to cut all ties with you. And I don't owe the person any explation on why I don't want to be friends with them. I'm doing this for my instanity.

Blast from the Past

I love Facebook!! I never thought I would say that because for the longest time My space was my addition. But, facebook is so much better. OK, so I'm spending a couple of minutes online going through suggestions of people that I would know. I hadn't looked in a very long time. I ended up finding alot of people from High school. Everybody looks about the same, that's if they took care themselves. You can the people that didn't. Alot of the guys are still single. And alot of the women that were really popular, all have kids but no man. And from the ages of the kids, they had to have them about 2 years after H.S. Some look sad, some still look as fake as they were back then. I wonder why I feel compelled to reach out and send a friend request. Sometimes, I feel I was misunderstood in H.S., like if people would of given me a chance they would of had a solid friend.
I like to think if that would of happened I would of been stretched to thin, and I wouldn't be who I am today. I'm sure theirs a reason why I wasn't acccepted in the crowd. I still don't really know till this day. But, why would I even want to go back to those days.
Things are different now, I'm different. Sure, I don't have a fancy degree to show off and have lots of money. But, I have a wonderful husband and beautiful baby boy. And I have a stable job with pretty good income. I think I'm average, just like I considered myself in HS. But, only now I'm older and certainly not the same girl that walked into a building insecure and sorta depressed. Just like any teenager, I had my ups and downs. I'd like to think that I've grown in the last 10 years. I can't believe it will be 10 years in June since graduation!
A little tid bit, while in school. I had a huge crush on a guy named Dustin. Cynthia knows all about it. She watched me pine over him on her bus, when I would come over to her house. Anyways, I was surprised to find out he accepted my friend request? do I really care. I mean I'm married now. And, happy at that. What do I care. It's more to prove to myself, even if it's late that I can say hey I'm not pining over you, but hey lets be friends.
Erik has so many girls that he's friends with it doesn't bug me one bit. However, I know he wonders why I don't have any guys friends. I have some at work I talk to. But, it's small talk. I find no reason to talk to them about my personal life in detail, like I do with my girlfriends, as I'm sure they feel the same way.
So, I ask myself should I say anything to any of these people? And what the heck would I even say. Some of them I haven't ever really spoke to? I know that more than likely none of them will respond and if any of them do I would be shocked. So, do I call it good that they accepted my friend request and just know of them? Why is it no matter how many years pass I start to feel a little insecure. I'm just curious what there thoughts are on things, I just like to talk. Not that I really time for alot of talking or hanging out. I'm sure that I'm just over anayzling again.

Hayden's 5 months!!!

My little boy is growing so fast. I love him so much. I feel like he's growing so fast that I can't even believe where the time has gone.
Erik took him to the doctor yesterday so we could get some answers on a couple of things that's been going on with him. He had this blood blister on his bottom that had burst a couple of days ago, and Erik and I were making sure to keep an eye on it. The doctor said that's it's healing nicely and everything was OK. There was also discussion about Hayden head, he has no only a bald spot on the back of his head, but he has his head sorta flat in an area. We wanted to make sure that we didn't need to get him a cradle cap or anything. Everything is looking good there, he said it should go away when he able to sit up more and more by himself. The next thing is he had this terrible rash on the back of his neck. It started as a stork bite and turned into this terrible rash that looked like it was spreading all over his back of his neck. He was prescribed a special cream to clear it up. I really hope it works. Hopefully, by next Monday we will see major improvement.

Other then that his breathing was discussed, I will be taking Hayden in to see a pulmonary specialist on the 19Th of April. I want to just be sure about Hayden's breathing, Even though he doesn't have a cold he's still wheezing and needs his neubilzer more then twice a day. Their going to do a CI x-ray at his appointment. I really hope everything is OK.

I have allot of time off in April. I might change it, but I have the 23rd a half day for school and April 30Th off as well. I'm needing to have sometime off but at the same time it would be nice to take a vacation this year.
I told Erik I would love for us to go as a family on a vacation but I guess we will have to see.

Oh No

So, last night I did the laundry as usual. But, as I was transfering the wet clothles to the dryer. I found Erik's shorts all twisted and quite heavy. I felt something hard and had my worst fear realized when I finally got to the pocket, and found his IPOD, with water in like a gel filled mess. I didn't pick the best time to approach Erik because he was working on his mid-term that was due that night. I thought it could be figured out, and feared if I waited to tell him I would get rid of it and act like I had no idea where it was. Instead I came right over to the desk and said that his IPOD was left in his shorts and it was washed. He was of course really upset, but in the process he said some really hurtful things to me. Like I can't even look at you, or I could just hit you right now. One of the things I can't stand most about him, is he holds a grudge for a while. He doesn't realize it was a mistake and plays it up like it's completly my fault.
We made an agreement long ago that it would be the person's responsiblity to check their pockets before stuff is washed. But, that went out the window I guess.

So, I said that he could borrow my IPOD it's a nano but it works. Well, I looked high and low for the thing, and I couldn't find it anywhere. So, mine is missing. The last time I saw it was last year when Erik borrowed it because his wasn't charged.

I love him so much, but he really doesn't take bad news with grace. He plays it up like it's all my fault all the time. And it's something I wish he would stop.

Is it Monday?

Normally, I have horrible days Mon and Tuesday, but it's done a switch to me, Thursday- Today is horrible. I was told by my boss I can't have the whole day Monday off. Now, I'm only getting a 1/2 day and to make matters worse. I have already this morning, 8 sendbacks on the one call I took where she had her stupid PCA services.

Not to mention, I'm unhappy right now, I could really use a treat or something. Because I'm hungry. Erik tried to make a different kind of smoothie today and it was way to tart. And, then he got all upset because I wouldn't drink it, he put orange juice and pineapple and blueberry, I told him it might not be good.

Plus, I found Hayden may of been exposed to Croup, and new baby in the daycare went in to the hospital because she has it. So, it started last night where Hayden has a horrible cough. ALot of sneezing and I just know he doesn't feel good.
I feel helpless, I wish there was something more I could do for him then i'm already doing. What a crabby day this is!