My biggest pet peeves!

So, in the light of today, I discovered that not only after I offically sick of filling out forms, but that If I don't vent to someone or something I'm going to flip out.
I have many pet peeves, some days I can tolerate them more than others. It really depends on my mood and other factors.

Pet peeves are not listed in any order:

Pet Peeve #1 Filling out forms/etc: I apply for finincial aid every year, now since I've had Hayden the goverment or whatever wants to know my income. They want a worksheet filled out and they want a questionare now, Basically, I have to try and remember the month, day and year, I was living in a different state. Thank god I've only lived in 2 total. What a major headache. They want to prove I'm a US citizan. I mean are you kidding me? It gets more complicated then that they want my taxes, now I could risk mailing them or I could email them to them. They said it has to be sent from my met net account, well that goes directly to my personal account so either way when I was trying to figure it out I have no way of sending directly from my met net. They want it be signed so it has to be scanned and so and so on.

Pet Peeve #2 People not paying attention on the roads,: and then you see their talking on their cell phone. Seriously one these days their going to cause a huge accident and take some ones life or their own. I'm even more cautious when I'm driving now that I Hayden in the car. Thank god, I dont have to go to far going to the daycare and coming home with him. I'm so parnoid of people on the road. Grow up and pay attention. It's not a race track. Nor, is it a place to be careless.

Pet Peeve #3 My job sometimes: Some days I can't stand the procedures and processes I go through at work. One of the most annoying one's I think of right now is when they send emails about adding something to the KN (knowledge Network) are main system for Medica on processes. They don't email the link to it, they show were on the site where you click to get to it. I don't have time to go through. I usually save it to my favorites, and remember the name of it or something and move on. Show where you would find and send the link.

Pet Peeve #4 Playing phone tag: I hate it so much. Especially with calling drs offices. You call the nurse line, and leave a message. Which is long, and you have to wait to hear a whole long message before you can leave one, Then they call you back and your on the phone, (because your at work) and then you call them back and then their not avaiable to take your call. And find out their not going to be in till much later.

Pet Peeve #5. You call a place and your told you have to call a different number, nobody knows what number your actually suppose to call you just call the number you're given and hope to god that's the person you're suppose to speaking too.

Pet Peeve #6: Someone that keeps contacting you, that you don't want to talk too. (don't worry it's none of you), I'm sure a couple of you know who I'm talking about, I just wish they wouldn't stop calling, facebook messaging me. I felt the only way to solve the issue was to cut all ties with you. And I don't owe the person any explation on why I don't want to be friends with them. I'm doing this for my instanity.

Blast from the Past

I love Facebook!! I never thought I would say that because for the longest time My space was my addition. But, facebook is so much better. OK, so I'm spending a couple of minutes online going through suggestions of people that I would know. I hadn't looked in a very long time. I ended up finding alot of people from High school. Everybody looks about the same, that's if they took care themselves. You can the people that didn't. Alot of the guys are still single. And alot of the women that were really popular, all have kids but no man. And from the ages of the kids, they had to have them about 2 years after H.S. Some look sad, some still look as fake as they were back then. I wonder why I feel compelled to reach out and send a friend request. Sometimes, I feel I was misunderstood in H.S., like if people would of given me a chance they would of had a solid friend.
I like to think if that would of happened I would of been stretched to thin, and I wouldn't be who I am today. I'm sure theirs a reason why I wasn't acccepted in the crowd. I still don't really know till this day. But, why would I even want to go back to those days.
Things are different now, I'm different. Sure, I don't have a fancy degree to show off and have lots of money. But, I have a wonderful husband and beautiful baby boy. And I have a stable job with pretty good income. I think I'm average, just like I considered myself in HS. But, only now I'm older and certainly not the same girl that walked into a building insecure and sorta depressed. Just like any teenager, I had my ups and downs. I'd like to think that I've grown in the last 10 years. I can't believe it will be 10 years in June since graduation!
A little tid bit, while in school. I had a huge crush on a guy named Dustin. Cynthia knows all about it. She watched me pine over him on her bus, when I would come over to her house. Anyways, I was surprised to find out he accepted my friend request? do I really care. I mean I'm married now. And, happy at that. What do I care. It's more to prove to myself, even if it's late that I can say hey I'm not pining over you, but hey lets be friends.
Erik has so many girls that he's friends with it doesn't bug me one bit. However, I know he wonders why I don't have any guys friends. I have some at work I talk to. But, it's small talk. I find no reason to talk to them about my personal life in detail, like I do with my girlfriends, as I'm sure they feel the same way.
So, I ask myself should I say anything to any of these people? And what the heck would I even say. Some of them I haven't ever really spoke to? I know that more than likely none of them will respond and if any of them do I would be shocked. So, do I call it good that they accepted my friend request and just know of them? Why is it no matter how many years pass I start to feel a little insecure. I'm just curious what there thoughts are on things, I just like to talk. Not that I really time for alot of talking or hanging out. I'm sure that I'm just over anayzling again.

Hayden's 5 months!!!

My little boy is growing so fast. I love him so much. I feel like he's growing so fast that I can't even believe where the time has gone.
Erik took him to the doctor yesterday so we could get some answers on a couple of things that's been going on with him. He had this blood blister on his bottom that had burst a couple of days ago, and Erik and I were making sure to keep an eye on it. The doctor said that's it's healing nicely and everything was OK. There was also discussion about Hayden head, he has no only a bald spot on the back of his head, but he has his head sorta flat in an area. We wanted to make sure that we didn't need to get him a cradle cap or anything. Everything is looking good there, he said it should go away when he able to sit up more and more by himself. The next thing is he had this terrible rash on the back of his neck. It started as a stork bite and turned into this terrible rash that looked like it was spreading all over his back of his neck. He was prescribed a special cream to clear it up. I really hope it works. Hopefully, by next Monday we will see major improvement.

Other then that his breathing was discussed, I will be taking Hayden in to see a pulmonary specialist on the 19Th of April. I want to just be sure about Hayden's breathing, Even though he doesn't have a cold he's still wheezing and needs his neubilzer more then twice a day. Their going to do a CI x-ray at his appointment. I really hope everything is OK.

I have allot of time off in April. I might change it, but I have the 23rd a half day for school and April 30Th off as well. I'm needing to have sometime off but at the same time it would be nice to take a vacation this year.
I told Erik I would love for us to go as a family on a vacation but I guess we will have to see.

Oh No

So, last night I did the laundry as usual. But, as I was transfering the wet clothles to the dryer. I found Erik's shorts all twisted and quite heavy. I felt something hard and had my worst fear realized when I finally got to the pocket, and found his IPOD, with water in like a gel filled mess. I didn't pick the best time to approach Erik because he was working on his mid-term that was due that night. I thought it could be figured out, and feared if I waited to tell him I would get rid of it and act like I had no idea where it was. Instead I came right over to the desk and said that his IPOD was left in his shorts and it was washed. He was of course really upset, but in the process he said some really hurtful things to me. Like I can't even look at you, or I could just hit you right now. One of the things I can't stand most about him, is he holds a grudge for a while. He doesn't realize it was a mistake and plays it up like it's completly my fault.
We made an agreement long ago that it would be the person's responsiblity to check their pockets before stuff is washed. But, that went out the window I guess.

So, I said that he could borrow my IPOD it's a nano but it works. Well, I looked high and low for the thing, and I couldn't find it anywhere. So, mine is missing. The last time I saw it was last year when Erik borrowed it because his wasn't charged.

I love him so much, but he really doesn't take bad news with grace. He plays it up like it's all my fault all the time. And it's something I wish he would stop.

Is it Monday?

Normally, I have horrible days Mon and Tuesday, but it's done a switch to me, Thursday- Today is horrible. I was told by my boss I can't have the whole day Monday off. Now, I'm only getting a 1/2 day and to make matters worse. I have already this morning, 8 sendbacks on the one call I took where she had her stupid PCA services.

Not to mention, I'm unhappy right now, I could really use a treat or something. Because I'm hungry. Erik tried to make a different kind of smoothie today and it was way to tart. And, then he got all upset because I wouldn't drink it, he put orange juice and pineapple and blueberry, I told him it might not be good.

Plus, I found Hayden may of been exposed to Croup, and new baby in the daycare went in to the hospital because she has it. So, it started last night where Hayden has a horrible cough. ALot of sneezing and I just know he doesn't feel good.
I feel helpless, I wish there was something more I could do for him then i'm already doing. What a crabby day this is!

Feeling Icky!

So, the last 4 days or so I've had terrible headaches and I also have some kind of stomach flu. I can't pinpoint what's going on. Erik thinks it might be stress, and he asked me what I'm stressed about. WEll, the truth is besides these two things I'm alright. I mean since the new year started I havedn't felt 100% wonderful but, something is up. Last night while Erik was at school I was going to play with Hayden and give him a bath. But, since my head was throbbing so much. I didn't want to take a chance with Hayden. My focus wasn't there. It was hurting so bad yesterday evening that I couldn't concentrate on anything. I was trying to take my next chapter pratice test for Psychology and needless to say I did horrible. Luckily it doesn't affect my grade, It was just practice. But, after my headache was gone I was experiencing cramping again. And a couple of minutes after that I was in the bathroom. I feel like shit today!! I really hope it goes away soon! I so don't want to be at work today. I could of really use having tomorrow off.

Nice Weekend!

I went out with my BFF on Friday! We had dinner out at Chilis. Which by the way I always get my standard buffalo chicken sandwhich but I went with a pulled BBQ pork sandwhich instead. YUMM! thanks to Cynthia saying that it looked good. We shared some laughter and got caught up with our lives. After dinner we headed over to Burnsville. And I got to see the new theater that was built. We brought our tickets, for Alice in Wonderland, and decided hit a gas station for treats and stuff, since the theater is so expensive. We stopped at Walgreens instead and headed back to the theater. We arrived about 45 mins early because we knew there would be a line to see it and wanted to be ready we went to the 9:30 showing. We arrived when just when the line was forming. We chatted with someone in front of us, accidently. I was talking about how Erik though the mall was queto. And, how it looked really nice now, especially the theater. The wait for the movie went really fast. Then we were in to take our seats. WE got the best seat in the house. WE got the very top row right in the middle. The movie was great and we really enjoyed ourselves. After the movie was over it was almost 12 and it was time to say goodbye.
I thought it was so cool Erik still had his guys over at our house for roleplaying but he still attended to Hayden, and did his dad duties.

On Saturday, I woke up really early and got right down to business with my homework. I was able to complete both classes homework, now I'm one week ahead of schedule. I'm trying to continue to be because you never know what can happen. It was a productive day all around. We all went as a family to our favorite mexican restraurant El Loro. During the evening we watched our movie Julia and Julie. It was a cute movie.

On Sunday, I was experiencing some cramping and headaches. So,I didn't do much in the beginning of the day. Erik made us breakfast and he worked on homework for a little bit then went shopping at the grocery store and etc for the week. I ended up cleaning a little bit, did a couple loads of laudnry and took care Hayden. He was experiencing so constipation issues again over the weekend. So he was really tired after crying so much through the day. When it got later. Erik and I had dinner. Taco pile on, one of my favorites and sat down and watched the Oscars. It was really relaxing Sunday for once. We didn't get to our taxes, but Erik promised we would do them this weekend. Other then that. Things are going pretty good. I felt that I got to do everything I set out to do.

House on hold some more :(

So I've been working with Bell Mortgage for about a year and a half now. He specalizes in helping people get a house when they have bankruptcy. It's been nearly 4 years that Erik and I have been in our apartment. And altough it's a great location and we've really made it our home, we would really like to get a house. Even a townhouse. Just so we can start building a history with a mortgage. Now that we have Hayden he's growing so fast and we need more space for everything. I got the call yesterday from Pete that our scores aren't high enough to even qualify. I wasn't surprised but at the sametime I was dissapointed.
I know we made the right decision filing bankruptcy when we did. I do have this great relief when June 2013 rolls around we will have no credit card debt. And Eriks car will be paid off. Mine is paid off in June of this year. I'm so excited. Because of daycare being so expensive we're hoping that they don't increase our payments even more. Because we now have a son to raise and be able to afford all his needs.
And, what I really hope is that when Pete runs our credit report it's high enough to qualify. He's pulling report again on June 1st. But, then if it isn't Erik and I have to decide do we sign up another year with our apartment, or do we pay higher to be month to month basis, just in case we qualify in September or Jan 2011. It's something we will look at when that decision becomes closer and closer. But, right now all we can do is hope.

Mental Day is Needed!

It's so busy at my work. I was trying to take anyday off in March. Erik was trying to get the day off as well. So, we planned on next Wednesday. I put the request in and thought I would get the day off. Turns out were so busy and short staffed that I can't get any day off except Monday the 15th. But, that works for me. I won't get the day with my hubby. But, I will get a day to do stuff for myself. Which I'm looking forward to, because that's the week that spring break starts too. I'm getting a 3 day weekend and I have no school for the week. I haven't decided what I will do with my day, but I have to be sure to not do any cleaning. This day is for me. I will drop off Hayden a little later and pick him up a little earlier. I look forward to the day so much! I need it, I'm getting so burnt out and I think this will help me collect my thoughts and get through the rest of the semester for school and try to get through work. I might stitch for part of the day and then maybe some video games.
Also, I talked to my boss and she mentioned if I wanted to work every other month 8-4:30. I would get a 1/2 hour lunch, but I get to leave at 4:30 that will really help me! I sure hope that it happens next month. It will feel like I have more time with this crazy schedule I have all the time.

Accomplishing the Impossible

I had a lot of homework over the course of last week, and to top it off I had to take a Psychology test that was on 4 chapters. I was quite nervous being that I tried a new method of learning the material. I was on absoutle high on Saturday. I ended up with a B on the test. Which I havent' seen in a very long especially on a Psychology test.
It makes me think I can do anything I set my mind to. My goal is to get a B for the class. Erik thinks I can acheive an A but, for me getting a B is a high goal considering I took it last Spring and got a D. I didn't do well at all. But, I feel like I have a chance now. As far as my other class. I have my highs and lows there too. I got almost a perfect score for the last assingment. But, the one I was working of the weekend with xcel I was so lost. I didn't think I had it in me to keep working on everything.
I did manage to not only do my homework, but watch all the programs I wanted and get some cleaning done. So, all in all I think it was a great weekend!